Manning later moved overseas to Wales with her mother, whose    marriage had crumbled. She began high school and sought friends    she could trust. "There were a lot of points where I would    start to come out, face stern resistance and mockery from    people I thought were my friends, and then reverse course. I    was scared," she says. "I don't think I ever said 'I'm gay' or    'I'm trans.' It was more like, 'Is it normal for guys to    crossdress a lot?'"  
    Manning's father, Brian Manning, has sharply different    memories, recalling a child who liked to play with Legos and    the family computer, not in Casey's room. He remembers a happy    household, no bullies at school. He does not believe that    Manning could have leaked hundreds of thousands of documents    alone without catching the attention of colleagues. Having    worked in information technology for 30 years, he says, "I know    what you can do and what you can't do."  
    Manning's mother, Susan Manning, said through a representative    at the Private Manning Family Fund that her child has always    been idealistic and she believes this is the root of any leaks.    She said she supports Manning "one hundred percent" in her    desire to live as a woman.  
    More turmoil followed Manning's return to Oklahoma after high    school in 2005. She lived with her father and got an internship    as a software programmer and designer, but both the job and the    relationship with her dad went south. A period of homelessness    followed, during which she largely lived out of her truck in    Chicago. She later moved in with an aunt near Washington, D.C.,    enrolling at Montgomery College. She worked 60 to 70 hours a    week at two sales jobs to pay for it, she says, and the juggle    became "insane."  
    Thoughts of living as a woman loomed. "But my schedule was    hectic, and therapists cost a lot of money," she says. "And    even though I started seeing a psychologist with the specific    intent of exploring my trans identity, I panicked and never    brought up the subject with her. It was all exhausting me to    the point I was turning to soda, cigarettes, and the Internet    for an escape."  
    A future in the military came into focus, urged on by her    father. "I was following the coverage of the Iraq war and the    ongoing 'surge,'" she says. "I began to wonder if I could help    out. Sure enough, I enlisted." Another thought occurred too:    Perhaps the macho environment would distract her from thoughts    of living as a woman.  
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    Basic training in Missouri in 2007 was rough. "I absolutely was    caught off guard by the intensity," she says. "There were    points when I was humiliated pretty badly. One of the drill    sergeants who inventoried my personal belongings made comments    about my phone: It was pink. I didn't think much about bringing    it with me  I just liked it."  
    One difficult night, she says, is "burned in my memory." It    came after a long day of marching with weapons loaded with    blank rounds. "We arrived at a range where you low-crawl under    razor wire," she says. As she was crawling, she says, her    weapon got stuck in semiautomatic-fire mode. She became    frustrated and tried to force the switch back. "This was a    stupid idea," she says. "It went off." The blast infuriated the    tired recruits. The next night, "I was jumped by two of the    guys who lived with me," she says. "They turned off the lights    and tried to push me into my wall locker so they could lock me    inside of it. I fought back." A sergeant came as Manning was    ready to strike a blow, she says, and she was sent to a    behavioral health clinic for "fits of rage." She says she kept    the locker incident to herself, and the guys "respected that    and left me alone."  
    Manning went on to become an Army intelligence analyst in New    York and prepared to deploy to Iraq. She entered a happier    phase, beginning a relationship with a student at Brandeis    University. "I fell in love with him. He was not my first    relationship, but he was certainly the most serious one," she    says. He was the first person Manning recalls telling about her    desire to be a woman.  
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