I need help. I am not getting any. I have asked for help time and time again for six years and through five separate confinement locations. My request has only been ignored, delayed, mocked, given trinkets and lip service by the prison, the military, and this administration. <\/p>\n
I need help. I needed help earlier this year. I was driven to suicide by the lack of care for my gender dysphoria that I have been desperate for. I didn't get any. I still haven't gotten any. <\/p>\n
I needed help. Yet, instead I am now being punished for surviving my attempt. When I was a child, my father would beat me repeatedly for simply not being masculine enough. I was told to stop cryingto \"suck it up.\" But, I couldn't stop crying. The pain just got worse and worse. Until finally, I just couldn't take the pain anymore. <\/p>\n
I needed help, but no one came then. No one is coming now. <\/p>\n
Today, I have decided that I am no longer going to be bullied by this prisonor by anyone within the U.S. government. I have asked for nothing but the dignity and respectthat I once actually believed would be provided forafforded to any living human being. <\/p>\n
I do not believe that this should be dependent on any arbitrary factorswhether you are cisgender or transgender; service member or civilian, citizen or non-citizen. In response to virtually every request, I have been granted limited, if any, dignity and respectjust more pain and anguish. <\/p>\n
I am no longer asking. Now, I am demanding. As of 12:01 am Central Daylight Time on September 9, 2016, and until I am given minimum standards of dignity, respect, and humanity, I shallrefuse to voluntarily cut or shorten my hair in any way; consume any food or drink voluntarily, except for water and currently prescribed medications; and comply with all rules, regulations, laws, and orders that are not related to the two things I have mentioned. <\/p>\n
This is a peaceful act. I intend to keep it as peaceful and non-violent, on my end, as possible. Any physical harm that should come to me at the hands of military or civilian staff will be unnecessary and vendictive. I will not physically resist or in any way harm another person. I have also submitted a \"do not resuscitate\" letter that is effective immediately. This shall include any attempts to forcibly cut or shorten my hair or to forcibly feed me by any medical or pseudomedical means. <\/p>\n
Until I am shown dignity and respect as a human again, I shall endure this pain before me. I am prepared for this mentally and emotionally. I expect that this ordeal will last for a long time. Quite possibly until my permanent incapacitation or death. I am ready for this. <\/p>\n
I need help. Please, give me help. <\/p>\n
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