Humour, tenderness, frustration and anger are all contained in Rachel Matlows memoir Dead Mom Walking, about the life and death of her mother, Elaine.

Matlows book is dubbed a "Traumedy," which reflects her even blend of comedy and tragedy to form a uniquely personal narrative. She writes about the approximately six-year period between when her mother was first diagnosed with Stage 1 rectal cancer and the months following Elaines death, in which Matlow seeks deeper insight into the overwhelming question: Why did her mother refuse to follow her oncologists and doctors advice for treatment?

Matlow, who was a longtime producer on CBC Radios Q, first explored her mothers story in an audiocast of the same name that won a 2016 Third Coast award and a 2017 Gabriel Award.

Elaine was never a typical mom to Matlow and her brother Josh. She followed her own desires to travel and explore the world without seeming to experience the guilt many mothers feel about leaving their children.

A teacher at an alternative school in Toronto, Elaine maintains a friendship with her ex-husband, Teddy, while going through a series of boyfriends.

On one hand, Matlow admires her mothers sense of adventure and free spirit. But she also envies others whose mothers behave in a more conventional manner.

Elaine announces her plan to cure her cancer through alternative medicine, including herbal tinctures, a raw food diet and talking to her cancer cells. She reads a number of books about people who were supposedly cured without conventional medical treatment and develops a distrust for what she calls "Big Pharma."

"Listen," she tells Matlow, "if I had faith in Western medicine I would endure its hazards. I wish I could believe in it. But I dont."

While Matlow struggles to convince her mother to listen to the medical experts rather than a bunch of con artists, she also fights to stay sane at work. She details the nightmare she experienced as a producer working with former Q host Jian Ghomeshi. "At work I was busy navigating another persons warped perspective. Jian had his own version of reality and he expected everyone to go along with it."

She describes how Ghomeshi took credit for the work of others, twisting the truth so Matlow and her co-workers felt that they were in the wrong.

While Ghomeshis ultimate dismissal from CBC after he was accused of assaulting three women is well-known, Matlows personal revelations about working with him prior to that are insightful. His public persona, primarily created by Matlows words and those of other producers who wrote his memorable opening monologues, differed so greatly from his true nature.

As Elaines health gradually declines and hopes of finding a cure dwindle, Matlow gives up a personal relationship to move in with her. Mother and daughter enjoy quality time watching movies about Paris and remembering their shared adventures there.

Matlow knows Elaines time has almost run out, but Elaine is still shocked when a doctor tells her that her mother has only weeks to live. She ultimately describes her mothers death in a very realistic, loving manner.

In the time after her mothers death, Matlow keeps busy organizing Elaines "after-party" featuring more than 100 guests. She also has a memorial bench placed on a pathway close to her mothers former apartment building with an inscription Elaine requested. But soon Matlows grief catches up with her ,and she is forced to dig deeper into their relationship.

While most of us dont have a mother like Elaine, we know someone who is likely to reject conventional medicine and gamble on their ability to find a magical cure for their illness. Matlows account of desperately trying to convince her mother to make the right choice while still respecting her right to choose makes Dead Mom Walking a sad but insightful book.

Andrea Geary is a reporter with Canstar Community News.

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